My personal journey:

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I would like to share with you the story of my son Alex. It is one that has shaped me into who I am today and why I chose to dedicate myself to the work that I do. ​

 

My son Alex was always a "busy" kid from a baby to a young adult. As a baby he required much of our one on one attention, as a toddler he was "climbing our curtains" (literally), and as a preschooler he was kicked out of his first preschool. We laugh of this occurrence now, but it was quite upsetting at the time. ​

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Throughout all of his life, Alex kept us on our toes. We always joked saying we needed to be "one step ahead of him". Alex was a "free spirit, beat to his own drum" kind of kid.  He was patient and kind, and always put others before himself. He was a GREAT friend to others and part of the LGBTQ community. Alex also felt the pain of others and was an “empath” and was always concerned about the goodness of others and our world as a whole.   He had the warmest hands; sweaty and clammy actually, and he gave the BEST “bear” hugs. Alex loved cooking from a young age and we called him a “chef in the making” Alex also had mental health struggles which required much more attention even at the age of 20. 

On the morning  of “February 16, 2022” Alex left this world very unexpectedly due to an undiagnosed cardiac condition. This was the day of my shattering. As I walked through the early days of my grief, I grieved the loss of my son but also the loss of myself. Who am I? What is my purpose now?  For twenty years I had been “Alex’s mom”, his primary caregiver, which required much attention. I also reflected on my belief in life and death.I remember talking with my dear daughter in law and “confessing” that I was scared, what if I NEVER see Alex again?”

Going forward I went looking for Alex. I soon started talking to Alex daily. I made it a ritual (and still do) to have “coffee and a chat” with him. During this time I was also going to a reiki practitioner on a regular basis . Receiving Reiki energy was a way to allow myself as a whole to begin to heal. I was introduced to breathwork and started attending breathwork sessions regularly. Meanwhile,I continued to chat with Alex as I would when he was physically here. Soon I found that Alex would answer me back, and began journaling our conversations. Often, I will journal a conversation and Alex will always follow it up with a tangible sign that resonates or makes sense to our conversation. I learned that Alex was sending me beautiful signs and “validations". I can now not only connect with my dear son in spirit, but others loved ones in spirit as well. All throughout this time of personal spiritual learning and growth, I have had a deep “wanting” to share my story with the hopes that it would help others like myself. 

As I continued on my healing journey, I had the deep longing to learn how to perform reiki with the hopes of once again, helping others just like myself. I decided to begin training as a Reiki Practitioner and my journey lead me to becoming a Reiki Master. When my Breathwork coach announced that he would be offering a certified breathwork facilitator training I immediately jumped on the opportunity. AND when I realized my ability to connect with spirit I went out looking for information; mediumship practice circles, classes, and mentors. So here I am today- a Reiki Master, Certified Breathwork Coach, and Practicing Evidential Psychic Medium. Due to my “shattering” and guidance from my dear son this is who I am today, and the beautiful work that I am blessed to do each and every day. I continue to heal,  learn, and grow each and every day with the intention to spread love, support and help others in their own personal journey.

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